Im not sure if anyone else can relate but sometimes i find myself struggling with trying to just Love God with all my heart, and i mean just that. I sometimes begin to wonder, "do I love God enough?" or things like "I don't feel like my love for him is good enough". These kinds of emotional thoughts began to put a lot of my heart on pause because i was just waiting till i felt just right to be a part of God's plan. C.S Lewis writes "Christians are told to love God. They cannot find any such a feeling in themselves. What are they to do? They are to act as if they did. Do not sit trying to manufacture feelings, ask yourself if I was sure I loved God what would I do? When you have found the answer go and do it!" And that is exactly right, we do not have it in us to love God fully, but we can trust and hold on to the truth of God loving us fully. Our feelings come and go, but his love for us does not. It is now a matter of holding on to that truth, that becomes the faith that pleases God.
Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. So stop trying to wait for that emotional boost to get you to get involved with what God is doing, and do not hold on to feelings as if they are the basis of your faith. Trust and believe in the work of Jesus Christ, and live like you do.
2 Timothy 2:13 If we are faithless, He remains faithful: He cannot deny himself.
